WE'RE EXPECTING!!! the little mister or miss (cross your fingers for that "miss") will be here around Nov 14th!
Yeah, I know to most of you (all 4 of you that read this), this is old news. But i have to document it somewhere other than facebook! And Lord knows i am not going to actually grab a pen and write this stuff down :o)
So yeah, i'll try to be more frequent with my posts, but that may be hard since i just started a job as a nanny (love it) and i've been feeling pretty nauseous rather often lately!
Billy will be one, a whole year, in just a few days. I know its mostly hormones, but that thought makes me want to cry. I mean BAWL. The first few months with billy were pretty rough, but then time just started flying by, and that breaks my heart! I'm trying to make a point to really focus on him, to try really hard to save these memories, before the 3 of us turn into the 4 of us! Don't get me wrong, I am THRILLED we will soon have another little baby to love, but the thought of not being able to spend as much focused time on Billy breaks my heart. I know it'll be good for him: he'll gain more independence, and eventually have a partner in crime (amongst many other things). But it still makes me a little bit sad. And guilty. Sad that i will probably miss out on things i would have noticed without the sleep deprivation and distraction of another kiddo. And guilty that we've brought this on him (what sometimes seems like) too early. I'm going to make a concentrated effort to take more picture of the 2 of us (and daddy when he's not working, poor daddy) so that we have them to look back on some day (since i seem to have the memory of a goldfish, haha). Like i said, i'm sure its the hormones making me feel this way, but that doesnt make it any easier!!
I'd like to keep this as a special place strictly for billy memories, but i think it'd be silly to have a blog for each kiddo... So, the address and title of this blog will stay the same for now, but i'm sure i'll be changing it in the near future!
I should really get some sleep before the next wave of nausea hits :o) Nite!
