WE'RE EXPECTING!!! the little mister or miss (cross your fingers for that "miss") will be here around Nov 14th!
Yeah, I know to most of you (all 4 of you that read this), this is old news. But i have to document it somewhere other than facebook! And Lord knows i am not going to actually grab a pen and write this stuff down :o)
So yeah, i'll try to be more frequent with my posts, but that may be hard since i just started a job as a nanny (love it) and i've been feeling pretty nauseous rather often lately!
Billy will be one, a whole year, in just a few days. I know its mostly hormones, but that thought makes me want to cry. I mean BAWL. The first few months with billy were pretty rough, but then time just started flying by, and that breaks my heart! I'm trying to make a point to really focus on him, to try really hard to save these memories, before the 3 of us turn into the 4 of us! Don't get me wrong, I am THRILLED we will soon have another little baby to love, but the thought of not being able to spend as much focused time on Billy breaks my heart. I know it'll be good for him: he'll gain more independence, and eventually have a partner in crime (amongst many other things). But it still makes me a little bit sad. And guilty. Sad that i will probably miss out on things i would have noticed without the sleep deprivation and distraction of another kiddo. And guilty that we've brought this on him (what sometimes seems like) too early. I'm going to make a concentrated effort to take more picture of the 2 of us (and daddy when he's not working, poor daddy) so that we have them to look back on some day (since i seem to have the memory of a goldfish, haha). Like i said, i'm sure its the hormones making me feel this way, but that doesnt make it any easier!!
I'd like to keep this as a special place strictly for billy memories, but i think it'd be silly to have a blog for each kiddo... So, the address and title of this blog will stay the same for now, but i'm sure i'll be changing it in the near future!
I should really get some sleep before the next wave of nausea hits :o) Nite!
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Yeah, another blog for me to read late at night! A few days before Charlie was born, I laid next to Petie in his bed for bedtime and sobbed thinking about how it wasn't going to be the same. I knew it was going to be great one day but in the meantime I road the guilt train and breathed in every ounce of Peter! It turns out to be one of the greatest recent memories of just the three of. Loving making memories the four of us goes without saying.
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